The one with letting go of comparison

Today I went for a glorious run. My brain was about to explode from finishing two essays that are due tomorrow, there was a perfect breeze in the air, and so I peeled myself off my study chair (I have pretty much made an indent on that thing at this point) and pranced out the door.

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I spent the the first half of the run cranking Eminem (specifically W.T.P, The Way I am, and Cleaning out My Closet, I am old school I know, #truefan).

The second half was filled with Mindy Kaling’s soothing voice reminding me that I am winning at life and that all my quirks are completely normal.

So as I was sailing along, wind in my running-induced afro, I was feeling pretty darn good. I was enjoying the run and had no idea of my pace or how far I had gone, and it felt amazing. That is until I was passed by a man who looked about eighty. Who was going about ten million times faster than me.

Dont get me wrong, I was happy for him that he was obviously fit and healthy and enjoying a good run, and ย super impressed by his running ability… but for a split second I questioned how awesome I am. This is not good. I aim to try and get through life believing in my awesomeness as much as possible (apart from when I need to self-reflect/learn stuff about myself in order to grow etc etc yawn ๐Ÿ˜‰ ).

For myself personally, comparing myself to someone faster doesn’t help me in any way. It doesn’t make me faster, in fact, it makes me want to quit. I really feel like it has taken a long time, but the yogic perspective of non-comparison on the mat has generally transferred into other areas of my life. Sometimes though, it can be a little too easy to think “I am like sixty years younger than that person, I probably shouldn’t be being lapped by them”.

But what good does that do me? Maybe if I was in the olympics it wouldn’t be a great sign for how well I was going to do. But right now my reasons for running are not about how fast I am or how far I can run.ย Today I needed to really remind myself of that in order to focus on what my personal run was supposed to be about- self care, lifting my mood, enjoying the beautiful weather, and appreciating that I am able to run andย feeling the joy of that in every step.

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So I mentally applauded the fit older man for crushing his run.

I ran the rest of the run with an awkward blissed out smile on my face.

I drank in the delicious sea air.

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I marvelled at my ankle’s power to heal itself and carry me all over the city.

I took a walking break in order to enjoy the waterfront to the max.

I took a sitting break just because it felt pretty darn good.

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I contemplated getting an ice cream but the thought of running all the way home with sprinkles and soft serve in my tummy was a bit much even for me.

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It was one of my favourite runs ever.

 

What are your reasons for running?ย 

Do you have a favourite running memory?

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7 Responses to The one with letting go of comparison

  1. “When I see someone running faster than me, I assume they aren’t going as far” ๐Ÿ™‚ LOL I know the feeling – I always seem to get passed by the lady pushing a running stroller in races! buzz kill for sure.
    Reasons I run – I want to stay healthy for long time to enjoy my life with my kids and husband. Keeping my life in balance is another motivator. I also run because I can, and I don’t take that for granted!
    You have some pretty darn beautiful scenery to enjoy your runs!

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    • Hahahaha I love that! I totally do that too! It is a funny feeling right? So much assumption about where we “should” be and even where they “should” be! It looks like you nail the balance thing, what with your running and your work and your family time always looking so amazing ๐Ÿ™‚ Those are awesome reasons for running ๐Ÿ™‚
      I know right? Ever since you said about how nice the view was and you would be running on your treadmill again I have been appreciating it all the more! seriously, thanks for that! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Jessica @ VEGGIE RUNNING MOMMA says:

    I agree.! it’s so so easy to compare yourself to others while running. Usually I don’t see other runners on my runs, but then when I get on the blogging world and I see all of thise awesome fast people. I’m like.. welp, good effort Jessica, you suck. haha. jk. but it’s easy to do.!! but doesn’t help any.!!
    I run because I love to. ๐Ÿ™‚ my selfish time.
    Gorgeous views on your run.!

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